CONFLICT.
Cry. Cry. Cry.
I know I don’t have as much tears as you.
You can go ahead and cry. I don’t care, can?
My tears are dried from the beginning.
You didn’t know how much you made me cried.
You didn’t know how much I used to suffer in silence.
You made life difficult for me. My tears are dried.
I won’t sit back and do nothing. I’m going to fight.
Although I know it will be a tough fight, I’m willing to scarify anything.
If it was last time, I will sit behind, and say nothing.
Because I know I will lose. I’m outnumbered.
Now, times are different, I won’t sit back.
You know, I may not lose this time. So think twice on going against me.
I have my strangers and shadows backing me up.
君子报仇，十年不晚。
I had tried to give in. I had tried to accept. But I can’t. Sorry.
I did my best, but I don’t think you did yours.
That’s my limit. I can’t tolerate anymore nonsense.
I didn’t say a word, doesn’t mean that you all can go overboard. That’s it.
It has been two years plus. I can’t take it anymore.
You can carry on crying and tells tales to people around you
Carry on discriminating and judge my bass clarinet. I don’t care, really.
So what? My bass clarinet is not shiny. So what? My part is all the bass thing.
So what? I don’t see anything wrong to it.
I don’t think you are anyway better.
You are just hypocrite. Carry on, tell tales to some tom, dick or harry.
I don’t care. You can carry on telling people I bully you.
But you should just reflect on how you treated me last time.
(I didn’t bully you at all, pls. if you want to think so, go ahead.)
You can go make the whole world hates me; I still have strangers & shadows.
You? What do you have? Some weird people who believes in your tales?
Please, go reflect, why does the juniors go out with me, not you?
And please think twice before accusing me of breaking the section up.
You know that incident is still bothering me.
And the second part, don’t know go where. Just come and accuse me and go.
You don’t know how hurt I was. How bothered I was?
Oh. Aren’t you breaking the sections up now, by telling some tales?
Breaking me away from your section was your one and only motive for two years.
Now let’s see who prefer to follow me, or you.
Oh. You refer clarinet section to your section but not ours.
You know how hurt I was?
You refer clarinet juniors to your juniors and not mine.
Please, having the authority doesn’t mean anything.
I can have no post in anything. Yet I’m closer to strangers and shadows. Why?
唯得人心，天下無敵。Apparently, you don’t know the meaning of this.
I am doing my very best to唯得人心.
You only know how to use your authority, and mix with those people with higher authority.
You know, I heard from someone, they felt distance to you as you don’t bothered talking to them. Only me and jewel cares about them.
Cry, go ahead. It’s okay. I don’t care. Maybe I used to care, but now…
Seriously, I don’t understand why our relationships become like that?
I’m sorry, I didn’t try to salvage during sec1, neither did you.
You only spread tales around about me, about my bass clarinet.
Every time I tried to salvage, I would be hurt times and times again.
I was alone then, lonely, afraid. I couldn’t do anything.
Now, I’m not alone. I’m not afraid. I’m ready.
So go ahead and cry. As I said, my tears are dried.
You don’t know how emotional I used to get after every band practice/ sectionals.
Now? I don’t really care. Or perhaps, I got used to that feelings already.
You know you twisted facts till, everyone think I’m at fault.
You know sometimes I see that cards from seniors, I cried.
Not because I’m touched of what they written.
It was because my heart sank when I see the way they write.
The way they say they want to see harmony in the section.
They way they think I’m at fault. I tried my best. But it couldn’t work.
You know how much I hated you now.
Fine, it’s ok. You want to play, I’m fine with it. I’m ready to play with you.
Let’s see who last longer in this game.
And if you want to complain to you-know-who, go ahead.
I’m not stopping you. It’s okay.
Oh, yes. Please don’t drag my friends anyhow into the picture.
And say what we on Friday bully you.
Erm, please don’t be crazy.
We did nothing that make you cry.
If you was saying, that I doesn’t want to join you crazy plan of leaving band on Friday at 5.30 to have a 2 hour dinner break, which made you cry, I think you are crazy.
Firstly, two hours is long enough for you to eat a buffet dinner. Seriously.
Secondly, that’s my choice. It’s a democratic society in Singapore, if you don’t know.
Ugh! Seriously, I’m really pissed off and tired about this conflict.
I want to end it soon, in peace.
Can I do that? Am I allowed to do that?
It takes two hands to clap.
So yeah, just to let you know, I’m not a person that you can play with.
But if you want to play, I can play with you.
Lastly, just to remind you, war has began long time ago.
Whether to end it or not, it’s your say.
No names were mention, go figure out who you are.
And this post was dedicated mainly to one person (and some other people.)
Oh, this post was written 99% in English so that you would not have trouble reading and misinterpret.
See, I’m so considerate. K, whatever.
im sorry, that this post is kind of wordy.
[edited]oh, now more people are getting involved in this conflict.
why? whats the problem with you! seriously!
what do you want to see after creating so much trouble?
unhappines? disharmony? or what?
say lah! you dont have to do such underhand tricks.
and, just to let you know that you are damn lame and childish.
fine, i admit. i was really bothered about this.
i could not really concentrate, my whole mind was why!
why this happen? what have i done wrong?
if this was your motive, to distract me, you succeed.
so stop playing that useless game with me.
but let me say one more time again.
if you want to play, i will play with you.