Ever since school started this year, i felt so dis-attached with my fandoms. No longer so up-to-date with all the news and performances. No doubt I am still known as the crazy hardcore kpop fans in school, but i know its different. I felt bad, so freaking bad that I can totally cry now.
I miss my 13+2 guys, especially. The thought of them still gave me strength in school. I have to work hard because I know Heechul Oppa, KangIn Oppa is working hard in serving their country too, while the rest is preparing for SS4.
As at of today, 27 Feb, I am still catching up on January’s videos. I paused many variety shows and dramas. I felt so ruined and screwed. At the rate of this, I think I would just drop out of these fandoms unknowingly. No, I can’t do this. I love all of them.
I am not sure if it’s me or is the kpop wave slowly residing already. But i have to make sure my love for my boys are always there. However, with my busy schedule, I don’t know how long my promise will last. Sadly, I can sometimes even get bored fangirling. And after that, i cried like shit because i felt so bad.
I went back to watch touching videos and fans made videos. I cried even more. I have come so far, went through so much as an ELF. No matter what, I can’t and leave this fandom. Once an ELF, always an ELF.
Yes, i might be busy, and more busy when the year goes by. I am still anticipating KangIn’s comeback. I guess this is the biggest thing this year for ELF, right?
Well, I can overcome anything and everything because I am Super Junior ‘s Ever Lasting Friends.