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你一开始就不是我对的人。
我不在乎。

只是,你变也太快了吧。
我再不是你最在乎的人了。

我想,我的决定是对的。。。

Posted on Thursday, March 15, 2012 at 11:50 PM

hi jewel. (:

Posted at 11:49 PM

原来,这就是被追求的感觉。。。
挺爽,挺开心的。有被心动到。。。

可是,可惜,对不起。 
我们真的是两个世界的人。 


其实,我又有什么资格拒绝人家呢? 

Posted on Sunday, March 4, 2012 at 12:43 PM

Ever since school started this year, i felt so dis-attached with my fandoms. No longer so up-to-date with all the news and performances. No doubt I am still known as the crazy hardcore kpop fans in school, but i know its different. I felt bad, so freaking bad that I can totally cry now.

I miss my 13+2 guys, especially. The thought of them still gave me strength in school. I have to work hard because I know Heechul Oppa, KangIn Oppa is working hard in serving their country too, while the rest is preparing for SS4.

As at of today, 27 Feb, I am still catching up on January’s videos. I paused many variety shows and dramas. I felt so ruined and screwed. At the rate of this, I think I would just drop out of these fandoms unknowingly. No, I can’t do this. I love all of them.

I am not sure if it’s me or is the kpop wave slowly residing already. But i have to make sure my love for my boys are always there. However, with my busy schedule, I don’t know how long my promise will last. Sadly, I can sometimes even get bored fangirling. And after that, i cried like shit because i felt so bad.

I went back to watch touching videos and fans made videos. I cried even more. I have come so far, went through so much as an ELF. No matter what, I can’t and leave this fandom. Once an ELF, always an ELF.

Yes, i might be busy, and more busy when the year goes by. I am still anticipating KangIn’s comeback. I guess this is the biggest thing this year for ELF, right?

Well, I can overcome anything and everything because I am Super Junior ‘s Ever Lasting Friends.

Posted on Monday, February 27, 2012 at 8:51 PM

你约我看电影。我们又见面了。

就当我要/已经放手时,来找我。

你知道这是多么残酷的一件事吗?


Posted on Tuesday, February 7, 2012 at 8:55 PM

How time flies. Tomorrow is my first day at a new school. Nanyang Junior College. A new start, a new beginning. I have no idea who will be there from Coral and I have no idea who is my classmates or new clique. I will be looking forward.

I got what I want. A new school with little familiar faces. But I felt lost at the same time. What if, what if, what if. Many what ifs question appearing in my head. Yes, a new start. I wanna start afresh, with a new personality and a new attitude.

I will learn to be smart and not do silly things, or enter some silly competition. I had my fair share of being judge in Coral. I had enough. But I had fun too.

It’s not like I dislike Coral. In fact, after everything, I’m still glad that I was from Coral. Yes, they might have the worse school song, the weirdest school rules and ugliest colours for the buildings but I met my best friends and best clique there. There were betrayals, there were mockery, and there were many bitches. So? It’s because of all this, I grew up. I learn how to protect and defend myself. Everyone does things for a reason. I forced myself to prove them wrong. And I did. I left the bitches behind.

Tomorrow at nanyang jc, who will I meet? ^^

Posted on Monday, January 30, 2012 at 10:57 PM

快三个月了。偶尔还会想起你。但是已经不重要了。。。

谢谢你这些年来的暧昧。

我也该往前走了。我们不会再见面了。。。

Posted on Saturday, January 21, 2012 at 12:59 AM

我醒了,发现全都是梦。

我好怀念这些日子。有一年了吗?好快。看到这些仅有的照片,我是多么的充满对不起和感谢。是这些人和回忆充实了我中学的生涯,也是这些人和回忆让我学到事实的残酷。有些事情我不想去想,但是可以吗?我生日的时候被你们玩,那时是真的还是假的?那时回到家,妈还笑着提醒说,最好是玩耍,不是报酬哦。现在想一想,我真的不知道。但是我真的喊开心,很感动。真的谢谢。是我最高兴的一次。遇难时,留下来的是朋友。谢谢你们让我看清楚你们不是。虽然过程中残忍了些。但是谢谢至少我开心过。痛苦的回忆就像你把我们的合照删了一样。虽然不痛苦了,但是很怀念。如果再让我选,对不起,我不会再跳进火坑。这样的痛苦承受一次都嫌多了。我心痛了,朋友不是多就好,有几个是真心的?我害怕再被出卖。这就是人生吧,多么的黑暗。难道追求梦想那么难,交割真心的朋友那么难。谢谢,我知道了。有时不知道真的是福。我们还可以是朋友。戴着面具又如何?至少痛可以减少,分期的痛。突如其来,我慌了。你们之间有太多的秘密。我不知道。真的很恐怖,真的很可怕。我告诉你们的话,还是秘密吗?算了,过去就算了。至少有一段是那么的美好,好到我不敢去多想,害怕发现其实它没有那么好。

花了半小时写了这段字。好浪费时间哦。反正又没人看、没人管、没人知道。

最后,谢谢你、对不起、我爱你 朋友们。将来让我们继续用着面具。至少不会再受伤,不会再痛。。。我知道我只能相信自己。现在我睡不着,我感伤,能对谁说?又有谁愿意听呢?

Olevel 也让我看清认识自私的。 




Posted on Tuesday, October 25, 2011 at 11:16 PM




11 more days to 0 levels.
32 more days to end of o levels.

study break started! hwaiting!


my source of energy.



Posted on Thursday, October 13, 2011 at 8:08 PM

沒有以前的感覺了,可是沒有尷尬。
我也不知道你是否在暗示什麽。
就這樣吧,好朋友吧。很好。
說真的,有想念以前,畢竟三年叻。

今晚,我很高興。因爲我們是朋友。

晚安,我的好朋友。



Posted on Wednesday, October 12, 2011 at 11:39 PM